Loneliness always better than Finding a Support

We find ourselves lost in pain,
And often get shoulders as gain.
The support we get
Makes us our sorrow forgets…..

We go on confiding in them,
And gradually becomes dependant on them…
For never we realize,
We are loosing our own Identity…

It’s always when once again we find ourselves lonely,
We realize we lost everything to what we believed to be ours…
But truth is…
It was always an outer support..

You serve every bit of yours,
You sacrifice all your wishes,
You change all your Thoughts,
You adapt all new means and belief, just…
to be loyal to the support and in turn be happy together…

And yet what we get is hate and regret.
It becomes impossible to adjust anymore.
Still you cant decide now on your own,
Because it was long back you gave your life in other’s hands…

And you can only be a mere puppet…
Laugh when someone else wants you too…
And nod when you strongly want to oppose.
Kill all your wants and help others to fetch the same…

Well.. That’s Life when you seek and get a Support.

Life is a Mystery!!!

Destiny brought us to meet each other,
freindship brought us to know each other;
care and affection brought us close to each other,
love took us miles apart from each other;

The memories still fresh, words still ringing;
hopes still existing,desires still so unfulfilled;
a mind so profound, an articulation of speech so rare;
we were freinds in joy and comforting in tears;

a love lost, a memory gained;
a dream entrenched,the deam of dreams;
the sorrow that i feel makes me hollow within;
the thought of us startles me even in deep sleep;

days have sped by, time has flown
to forget you-that is what i had sworn;
to wipe off your memories from my heart;
to live on, knowing that we are poles apart.

but often, on silent, lonely nghts,
when the moon is shining bright; Must
your thoughts come stealthily to my mind,
and prod other memories left far behind.

Each day starts with you in heart and soul;
each day ends in reliving moments spent in peace;
Still your thoughts awakes me at midnight,
only to discover once again i am so lonely;

of times we had, both good and bad,
of tears we shared and fun we had.
but what went wrong, i have no clue;
but as long as it lasted, i know it was true.

you have touched my life in many ways,
i try explaining, but just cannot say;
i know nothing can replace you and your thoughts;
all i can say and mean is one true "Thank You"

Today i may be wrong,i might portray decisive
but deep within i know the need for it.
you must move on and so must i,
must accept the truth, though with a sigh.

time heals all wounds,but not this one.
the scar remains, the harm is done.
memories are to be treasured,and not to be cried on;
thats why you remain in my heart
to this very day.....

Unstable Mind

You were in Heart,

You were in mind.

But you weren’t in life ……

Still I had you in my dreams,

I had you in hopes

But could not have you beside me …….

You were the same,

And I was the same

Yet life changed

Coz things between us weren’t the same …….

Time went on,

We moved on,

Our love couldn’t grow

But friendship did grow ………

You became indispensable,

I became important.,

Still our tracks were different

Though the destination same

Today, life has you

But heart and mind do differ

I have you beside me

But hopes all lost, dreams all blurred …..

True that I always longed for you

And always wanted to be special

But never this way ……..

Today I am the one ,

But also the second

Never wanted to be an option

But have become one today ……

Help me out , show me a way

What should I even wish for……

To let you be far and long for you

Or keep you close and crave for you …….

Either a confusing past

Or a disaster today …….

I Just Wanna Spend My Life With You..........

Eyes are drooping, mind is still..

Body at rest, yet memories at best..

How ridiculous to beleive last night,

when dreams prove i dreamt all night..

Longings never ends, it grows every second.

And so does the pain of distance...

Eyes may be closed and body might sleep all set..

But at the end why the pillows are wet..

My arms still stretched and waits for you...

For it knows, if not you,its hopes in form of you...

Dreams they say come in deep sleep...

when there is no light....

Then why do i still dream to have you,

Even when i see you in daylight...

Everyone sleeps with a hope of a new and better tomorrow...

I be awake and recall our never to return golden yesterdays...

For still i fear a much more tougher tomorrow...

How still have the courage to say you good night..

When i myself will hold you in mind throuh out the night..

Days, months or years..

Let it be years later..

But these eyes will be peaceful, only when you are here..

To make sleep better...

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